motivated or unmotivated

I am trying to sit here and read until my head comes off for these online courses I am taking this summer. And all I have to say, it is testing my own motivation and my ability to stay focused. It is hard when teachers (professors) aren't there to facilitate the discussion and motivate me to deeper thought.... ahhh my own self efficacy and the perspection of my own ability is fading after 5 hours in one place:)